I want to try and push thru the emotional dam that's been forming in my mind over the past several months, and try to talk a bit about what's going on in my world.. Last time i wrote, I was coming to the end of my holiday contract at disney in orlando, and was getting ready to do a lot of moving around, before i returned to Nashville, for what I thought was for good.
A few days before I was set to leave Orlando...I almost wanna say that it was the day before I was supposed leave, my transition died in my car.. To the tune of $3,100 worth a damage,Died. SOOO.. plans were changed... And thru the benevolence of a friend, and using some flyer points I'd been saving up for a vacation trip one day...I was able to book a flight home to nashville... so that I could get back to life here. I'd missed a session that I was booked to sing on, because my transpo was jacked...but eventually, things got worked out. On the day that I was supposed to fly out...my sweet friend and sister who was giving me a ride to the airport... was unable to get home from running her errands in enough time for me to get to the airport...and SO I missed my flight home. By THIS point, ,my insides were a mess.... My stomach is SOOOO mean to me. ANYTIME i'm excited, or nervous, or too badly upset...my stomach goes bazzirk... and gives me...well... BUBBLE GUTS!!! haha...soooo, while trying to find another flight home and trying to get it together so that I dont make my friend who was taking me to the airport feel any worse than she already felt... I locked myself away in the restroom.... on the potty.
hahha... TMI i'm sure... but I want you to fully understand what was going on with me..... So, finally I find another flight at the BUTT crack of dawn the next day and everything concerning my travel, is settled. It was relief to have about how I'd get back to nashville.... but still there was a bit of a heaviness as I sat in my friends' home. She, my boyrfriend (at the time) and myself. ALL of us were stressing out because of all of the things going on in our lives... my boyfriends' car had broken down weeks before mine did, I was his transportation, until mine gave the ghost as well... then we were able to stay with my dear friends, that i've known since college.... But nothing was going on, in an ideal way. While I was very happy to have figured out how I'd get back to nashville, i was still very heavy hearted. I'd be leaving my boyfriend, and not knowing exactly I'd see him again..... I had no car, so I was very worried about what life would look like when I got home. My dear freinds, who'd allowed me to rent their home for months before, were originally set to be gone from the house until May..... But over the holidays, they found that they had to cut their trip short.....SO... once I got home, they'd ALL be home...my sweet friends and their 3children... but they NEVER pressured me to leave their home, just because their plans had changed..... They offered my a place to lie my head for as long as I needed to..... Grateful to them, beyond words...because truth be known, now that my holiday contract was over... I only had FEW sessions in nashville, and no further work with any of the other artists/ministries I travel with until April...
So... While my friend, my boyfriend and I... sat around in the family room...relieved to have the flight issue solved....my mind still ran furiously with thoughts about the days ahead.... when all of a sudden, my phone rang... My boyfriend went and brought the phone to me, and immediately recognized the number.... "ITS DISNEY!" he said.... as our eyes all bounced around, and my played connect 4 with each others' eyes.....
everyone sat on the edge of their seat while I tried not to act like weird...and answered the phone..... LOOOONG...REALLY LONG STORY SHORT...(and i'm SOOOOO sorry for how long this story is taking), it was the head of Talent Casting at disney.... he offered my a full time contract. That would begin in March... and soooooooo... I said ALL of that to say this... I'M FRIGGIN' MOVING....AGAIN....BAAACK TO ORLANDO...from whence I just came...
I'm going BACK to the same group that I was in before... the amazing Voices of Liberty... but THIS time, I'm statused as an ALTO... wooo HOO!!! I'm sure that i'll do some soprano singin' every once in awhile while i'm in the group... i certainly hope so any way...but i'm REALLY excited about this new path in the group...
ALSO i'll be working at a church there in town... Gunna be teaching and directing the choir and praise team, and leading along with a team of really great worship leaders...... So my moving back there is 2fold... I'm so ..SOOO excited about the move... But i'm just about PETRIFIED with all that has to be done to make the move happen... that includes gettting all my crap there, finding a house, and moving in it.... ALL with the the BIGGEST, IMAAAAGINARY budget known to man!! hahahaaaa....
*Mo' (Maurice Carter),Jaimie and Me..studio' singin',smilin', and lovin' it!
I leave Nashville on March,7th. I've had lots and lots of folks joke with me about how i'm waaaay beyond the boy that cried wolf... I keep leaving...and coming back, and leaving.... this is all so true.... BUT.. there's something in my spirit and in my heart this time that knows that things are different.... Not saying that i'll never live in Nashville...or go to Christ Church.... BUT... this time, I don't leave with the expectancy that God bring me back soon.... THIS time, I'm expecting God to know that I truly will follow him where ever he leads me.... THAT, my friends, is the scariest most exciting place to be in the world. We often say "Lead me Lord, I will follow".... But how many times can we honestly say that we've felt the REALNESS of that thought in our heart?
I'm leaving here in just a few days and ALREADY things are so much different for me than they were months ago.... Nothing looks the way that I presumed it would be this point. I'm single again.... Healing from that loss...and trusting God for continued wisdom in the matter of my heart, in romance and relationships.... But I tell you what ELSE has changed....ME... ALL in less than a year's time... God has worked my heart and mind over and over, and then over 18 more times.... This move BACK to Orlando, will be my FOURTH move in less than 12 mos time.... I'm exhausted physically, and many days it feels like my head is swimming... BUT I KNOW IN WHOM I HAVE BELIEVED... and I'm ready! I'm ready for where life is taking me next... I'm ready for what it is the Lord is setting me up for in this newest chapter.....
Thats really what all this is,isnt it? Following Him..... one big DIVINE setup!!...lol meh... mkay, i've rambled enough...
Keep me in your prayers peeps... the next few weeks are gunna be..... "FUN"?!!!?!... yup... that's what we'll call it... FUN!!
Love yns!!
